Before I left the house I put in a security camera. She knew about it. Even got mad because I checked on her once but ultimately put it back up. Almost every day since I’ve been gone I can see evidence that she’s drinking and lying to me about it.
Here she’s pulling a tall boy out of the diaper bag. This was on June 24 2022.
Here you can hear that lovely crack from the can and then magically she’s drinking out of a cup. She doesn’t do that when she’s drinking 0.0.
I’m now at the point that I think I need to leave my vacation a day early. I’m starting to get worried that she’s going to escalate if I don’t go home. I’m so sick of this shit. And you can’t call her out on it because she’s constantly in denial. She can admit the problem most of the time but then she believes that she has it under control.
I texted the therapist to see if she can fit me in because I’m tired of the circle. I just want drinking to not be a problem.
I hate so much that I have to document all of this.
I think when I get back I’m going to go to al-anon meetings. It’s been suggested in my group but sounded like shit. But, enough people swear by it so I’ll give it a shot.
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