Oh I don’t know what to do oh I’m so tired yesterday after I drop kick you off at physical therapy I decided to go back home I need to change miles anyways and I walk in and Lauren is pouring a beer into her cup for work and the only reason she didn’t drink and drive because I happen to come home and then today she finds out that she got a new job and I’m super excited I leave work an hour early I grab some sparkling cider just so we could celebrate just a little bit and I can tell by her mannerisms Is the she’s been drinking and I got home in like a little under an hour after she did so she was drinking and driving with her son I just don’t get it I don’t want it and she refuses to acknowledge it she was drinking of course God only knows where sometimes she can tell me sometimes she can’t but every single bit of her mannerisms tells me that she’s been drinking and at what perfect at what point after so long when do you say enough is enough where is the giving up It’s like it’s like we get closer and closer to having longer and longer periods of just Kimble lead to happiness and then she does one thing and it’s like so much time gets lost I’m hurt because she doesn’t talk to me I’m hurt that she lies to me I’m heard that she drives trunk in a car with her kid and I can’t even prove it enough to tell the cops the only thing that I can really do Let’s hope she gets pulled over is the only thing that I can do when does it stop why didn’t I run before we got married why did I put myself and my kids in this position play did I even really love her just thinking with my Dick I just just want it all to stop So I’m gonna go in this target and get some milk and I’m gonna sit out here for an hour and wait to pick up Haven oh why me