Today I looked at the camera for a minute to see how all the kids were doing. I noticed a thumbnail of Lauren carrying Miles into the house this morning. So I watch the video and noticed that she’d brought home something to drink and there were no charges on the bank account. So she’d had cash again even thought she’s not supposed to.
She called me and I’d asked about it. She got super defensive as alway and told me that she was tired of being questioned and accused. Eventually I let it go, had therapy. I felt like I’d made some progress there, at least enough to let it go.
Lauren called me to talk and told me that if she had to be a stay at home mom she’d absolutely be an alcoholic.
Fast forward to 2:47PM.
I get a text from my daughter that starts out like most do when she wants something. It took a turn I didn’t expect. Lauren had stashed a drink under the kitchen sink.
Just in case you can’t see the photo, here it is. So hidden.
It’s a Lime A Rita. The funny thing is that in the Live Photo on my phone you can hear Lauren talking in the background.
Lauren has put tape over the camera so I can’t see what’s going on but I can still hear her slurring her words.
When is this shit going to end? When? Is it really going to take her family knowing what’s going on? Is it really going to require me adding more cameras? Or is it really going to end in divorce? A functioning alcoholic is still an alcoholic and she clearly does not believe she has a problem. She left the older kids and her niece at home to go get a drink at 10AM. What the fuck am I supposed to do?
I’ve messaged the therapist. She’s going to talk with me at 4 after Lauren’s session. The last few weeks have been so great. Even though this is her problem to deal with I feel like I’m failing her, our marriage, and our kids.